sometimes living in this house makes me feel enclosed,trapped,unable to say or feel how i want. theres time i just wanna get up and leave to be alone with my thoughts. at times i want to just go out in the pouring rain and be surrounded by nature. As gay as it may sound,this society has us poisoned and im sick of trying to fit into the mould of a typical 17yr old girl because that itself,is an uphill struggle.

this will be my first blog,after nearly two years of having this thing. Lets hope its momentous!

whilst eating this evening it dawned on me how clever the mind can be and how it perceives different situations. I have come to this conclusion after watching a Derren Brown show,many people think hes just full of shit,but for once this show wasnt all about him claiming to perform things that aernt possible. This time he was actually doing something for the greater good. Hes still a bit of a creep though. that is all...